Journaling...

Is that really what this is?

I am not so sure.

In communications we talk about knowing your audience. If you know who your audience is then you'll know how to communicate with them easier, the tone and the pace of the piece will be correct. I was once an avid journal-er and the audience for me was always my older self. So I ask myself, who is my audience now?

I know there are a select few who come here and read that know me, but for the most part does anyone one I don't know read these? And if you do why would you be interested in slowly watching me loose my shit? Schadenfreude? That is the only thing I can think of.

I don't edit these things. I put words on the screen as they come out of my brain. I may spell something wrong here or there, but thanks to technology I can at least fix that.

So I don't know if I should change the audience to the general web population or if I should re-focus it to an older, dear god I hop wiser, version of me.

I just want this pain to go away.