Its been way too long...

Here we are again. Oh blog I've missed you.

The last 8 months have been a whirlwind- and that is putting it mildly.

The last week has been insane as well.

In the words of my favourite fencing Spaniard: "Let me splain- no! There is too much. Let me sum-up."

My Grandpa on my Mom's side was diagnosed with stage 4 liver and lung cancer. They gave him 4 months. That was 3 months ago.

I'm his favourite grandchild.

I've broken up with my boyfriend and moved out.

Back home, which is not the worst place ever to be, but at 27, its pushin it. I need to get on with my life and be an adult.

My bestest girl friend and her husband are moving to the other side of the country. Who's gonna be girly with me now when I need it? :(

I closed a wonderful run of "Nine" the musical at Hunger Artists, in Fullerton. It was my first show in just about 2 years, so it was so much fun to be back on stage. (that's me down there trying to look like I'm out of 1941)

I've made lovely connections with all of the amazing ladies of the cast.

The only male in the show was arrested a week ago for killing two people.

He did that 2 weeks ago in between shows.

Yeah, insane.

Can we talk about the lack of sleep I've had the last 2 weeks please?

BUT to put things in perspective:

Yeah. I'm not affected by the oil spill to much at all. Can you imagine trying live like that?

If you're living in the Gulf and trying to make a living by fishing or other means of the waterways? Ugh.

Unemployment in California is nearing 13%. I'm so thankful to have a job!

But still...

My heart hurts. My heart is heavy. I feel like if I wasn't so strong that I would just cocoon up into a ball and stay in bed for days. Maybe that's coming, I tend to deal well with things while they're happening, its when they're over and everyone is gone that I tend to lose it.

So here is a picture of something that makes me happy. Something I will have someday, oh yes, he will be mine, he will be mine. (Even if its not this exact one)

I freaking love these horses! Who am I kidding, I love any horse!